37: My Mind Needs 24 Hours to Freak the Fuck Out
I hired a coach to help me work through a vulnerable situation with a colleague. As soon as I hired her, I felt knots in my stomach in anticipation of the discussion with my colleague…even though hiring the coach was a totally safe opportunity to prepare for the discussion. After my coach and I talked, […]
34: Three Reasons I Was Scared (Not “Anxious” or “Stressed”)
It was mid-afternoon on Thursday when I realized I was scared. It was slow to dawn on me. All I knew was that I felt antsy and discontent, despite the fact that I’d just gotten a new client, I’d had a terrific informational interview, I’d gone to the gym that morning, and I’d done great […]
32: Thankful Thursday
I knew there would come a day when I would feel utterly uninspired to write. Probably more such days are coming. It’s 4:45, I’ve worked hard, I went to the gym instead of writing this morning (I am now one of those people who “goes to the gym”), I had a lot of fearful thoughts […]
30: The Fallacy of Fearlessness
I searched “fearless” in the books section on Amazon, and found: Live Fearless: A Call to Power, Passion, and Purpose by Sadie Robertson and Louie Giglio Fearless: Confidence with Essential Oils in 2 Hours by Sarah Harnisch Fearless: Imagine Your Life Without Fear by Max Lucado Be Fearless: 5 Principles for a Life of Breakthroughs […]
29: Imagining Your Opus for Joy
I watched Beyoncé’s Homecoming. It was epic – that is the only word I can think to describe it. What came through was the unbridled, fierce joy, the teeth-clenching determination, the insistence on the vision, the dedication, the commitment, the inconceivably hard work… and on and on. It makes me wonder: what does it feel like […]
26: There Is Nothing Wrong With You
When I was growing up, we had a neighbor across the street named Robert. One day, Robert and I and other neighborhood kids were tossing around a football. When it was my turn to throw I sent it to Robert, and he said, “you throw like a girl.” I could tell from his tone of voice […]
25: Finding Good Signs
Living in a north-facing fourth floor apartment in Phoenix means that we get quite a color show every sunrise and sunset. Sometimes the oranges and pinks and purples are so vibrant and searing that I shake my head and laugh. There are many moments during the day when there’s so much to worry about and […]
18: Are You Grumpy This Morning?
Do you ever wake up and feel so grumpy? Sometimes I’ll lay in bed in the wee hours and feel like cement because I’m so full of dread and resentment about what I “have to do” that day. It’s nonsensical, because the sun is up, the sky is blue, and it’s beautiful. My mind does two […]
15: When Is Enough Enough?
My weight trainer asked me to define “strong.” When I started working with her, my goal was to become strong. What does that mean? she asked. I will not bore us all with the dictionary definition, because the question on the table is what does strong mean to ME? To YOU? I was tongue-tied. “Strong” […]
14: What It Feels Like to Should On Yourself
In bed this morning, watching the stripes of daylight that came through the blinds, I had this thought: you should be making more money by now. I was thinking about a coach I’d love to hire, but she’s pricey. Yet in my fifth year of business shouldn’t I have the cash for a $15,000 investment […]
